Suspension of Disbelief

 My previous post was found as a blank page in draft form this evening.  I found the existence of it to be rather poetic.  So I published it blank as is over a year later.  Seems fitting to be honest.

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 Tonight's topic was going to be loss.  2020-2022 held for me quite a bit of loss.  I was going to write about it, but I came across this and I think it sums it up pretty well...  Do well to remember though that loss can also be a new beginning.

Navigating life into your mid and eventually, ugh, late 30's is much different than your mid/late 20's.  Artificial time limits that we impose on ourselves for many of life's milestones seem increasingly close and their goals seem increasingly distant as the years tick forward.  It is important however to remember that these milestones are not actually set in stone.  They take work.  Sometimes a lot of work.  And they don't have an actual timeline. In my 20's I believed by 36 I would be married to a good man.  Have a family.  A career.  A home.  And that things would be, in all, pretty decent.  All the hard work of my early 20's would pay off and all of these milestones would be reached.  But of course, we're all a little naive about these things.  We have emotional responses to them which sometimes cloud logic. Three years back, I was in a relationship.  I had a good paying job.  And, as should come as a surprise to ...

 Suffice to say, I think it's obvious that it has been a hot moment since the last time any real inspiration struck me.  I've touched on why in at least one previous post from many years ago--that thinking of the world and of existence requires a higher level of thought than is often available to us during the daily grind.  If you must hunt and gather continuously to find food for subsistence, physical tangible food or else intellectual or emotional sustenance, you do not have the structure in place that allows you the time to delve into the higher levels of existence.  If memory serves me, and I'm not entirely certain it does, I had basically surmised that those who have to struggle for air rarely can oxygenate the intellect enough to stimulate new understandings of ideas.  It has been such a very long time for me between said events.  Inspiration has found a way to strike however, and it is this.   Humankind, and indeed all of nature as we know it, i...

The lower you are, the lower your mental state of mind, the higher the likelihood you seek out instant gratification.  It's a self-feeding cycle. You do nothing intrinsically different now than we did 10,000 years ago.  We wake up, go to work to provide for ourselves and our families, return home, eat, relax and socialize, and continue again the next day.  It is no different in action than walking up, going out hunting or foraging, coming home, eating, and relaxing and socializing before going to bed to do it again the next day.  The basic needs of mankind haven't changed, just the conditions it is undertaken within and the methods we use to do so. Uniqueness is a product of past experience. Companies reward executives with more money for more successfully paying workers less money. The only difference between a social bath with friends and a hot tub party is the appearance of alcohol at the event and of bubbles in the water. Cheese is essentially rotten and moldy mi...

There are two forces at play in the universe that impact and shape mass.  They are gravity, the attracting force, and it's counter, repelling force, absence.   Remove absence from the equation for a moment.  Picture the universe as different sized marbles placed on a trampoline.  If the quantities of mass in the universe in any one area break beyond a certain level of density, or in the sake of our trampoline, are heavy enough to impact the surface tension of the trampoline... ie are heavy enough to indent it, the mass will pool together in a central point.  Eventually, if not for a few potential equilibriums being met, whereby a balance is achieved in the mass being equally dispersed so that all symmetrically attract all others, the entirety of the mass will eventually pool together. In this model on a universal scale, if gravity is the only attracting or repelling force, eventually everything would pool back together into a Big Crunch. ...