Just a Little Bit

Life sucks sometimes you know, sucks the big one, but then sometimes it's real good.  I dunno why, but I'd sure like to find out.

Hey, I'm not the happiest person in the world, I know that. But I try and that should count for something.  People don't really understand that well.  I have my reasons. You can cheer me up, make me happy, but really, you'll never understand.  And I don't blame you.  No I don't.  Not in the least.  I don't want people to know.  To know is to know weakness, pain, my innermost thoughts and desires.  To survive in this world you have to be strong.  Unfortunately that means alienating yourself from yourself sometimes,  think of Beetlebrox in Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy for example.

I am not an emo asshole.  I don't like people who whine about their feelings I've never been in a band and I don't like their music.  I am too matured, a product of my life experience, to care.  I like graphic violence.  Oh hell yeah I do.  I like graphic sex.  The more the merrier.

I do want to say one thing, and some won't believe me I know, but I don't care.  I have never been truly angry at anyone outside of my own family.  Never.  In my mind, anything anyone could do to me pales in comparison to the hell that my family life has been over the years.  But I won't tell most people about those things and I try not to think about it.

Music is my redemption.  Listening not playing.  Rock only please.  The only true music style in my mind.  Nothing is like the power of music.  It brings me to a place where I make the rules.  Where I'm happy and anything's possible.  Nothing like listening to my headphones, tuning the world out, or blasting the fucking hell out of the neighbors ear drums and vibrating the plaster off the walls. Hell yeah!

I don't care who reads this, seriously not at all.  I didn't really say anything at all.  Just scratching the surface.  Figured that someone out there might like to know that there are real people out there with real problems.  The kind you don't go to therapy for.  The kind that you don't whine and cry about.  The kind that are best fought rather than shared.

Life sucks.  Well for the most part.  But I do hope that for you it doesn't suck quite as much as it has for me over the years.  And you couldn't understand how much it sucked.  If you truly genuinely care to know, then ask.  But no one does.  And I don't blame them.  No one wants to feel bad.  And I don't want to have others feel sorry for me.  That really gets me annoyed.  

Just remember that everything I am now is a product of my past and of my trying to escape it.  But everyday it gets a bit better.  It's a long way going still and the hardest part is yet to come.  We'll all move on eventually.  Hopefully sooner than later.  I am not emo.  Just in case there was any misinterpretation.  This is serious shit.

My News Tidbits

The Arkansas high court has reversed a previous decision disallowing gay couples to adopt. (http://www.arkansasnews.com/) Well it's about damn time.

The U.S. Millitary describes homosexuality as a mental disorder despite most every expert denying this accusation. (http://news.bbc.co.uk/) Now just be careful not to blame this on bureaucracy, it's actually what the government believes. Save us from the stupid!

On July 4th, 2006, North Korea tested two short range missiles in direct violation of international regulations. The U.S. responded with brief chastisement. (http://www.usatoday.com/) This just tells me that we'll invade countries weaker than ourselves but not those who have a chance of fighting back. And don't tell me we wouldn't've invaded Iraq if they tested anything larger than a bottle rocket.

Ann Coulter is taking heat for yet again seemingly plagiarizing parts of her new book (Godless:et.al.) from various fully available sources. (http://www.nypost.com/) See, not only doesn't she pose unintelligent, illogical arguements twisted to fit the tyrannical views of the Christian right, she's also a thief! I love who ever figured this one out.

President Bush has said that he will go ahead with millitary tribunals, that just last week were deemed illegal under the Geneva Accords by the SJC. (http://www.bloomberg.com/) This administration is yet again breaking the law, and yet again seriously so. I think it's about time we make some arrests.

Flag burning is still legal, despite the efforts of Republican Congressmen to ban it. (http://www.boston.com/) What a way to support our troops. Forget about them and focus on flag burning.

After a yearly check-up, Dick Cheney is said to be in good health. (http://www.usatoday.com/) Well good is a relative term I suppose. Perhaps he is the healthiest man to every survive a quadruple bypass and two angioplasties. I don't know. But I do hope that our medical community doesn't endorse this accessment. Sounds like someone needs to go back to med. school.

New Feature

I find that more often than not that older articles are lost upon casual browsers and for this I decided to create the Featured Article section. It can be found at the bottom of the main page, complete with a direct link to the article and a brief word by yours truly.

-FlyFreeForever (Admin)

The Way We Are

Times like this really get me thinking about the direction of our politicians. When is it ever in the best interest of the country to clog our system with pointless, politically motivated Congressional sessions? Yesterday Congress took up the issue of flag burning and whether or not to pass a Constitutional amendment banning it. Doesn't this just show us where their loyalties lie? They are more worried about keeping their jobs this November than they are about our troops overseas or our economy here at home or the continued removal of money used for student loans.

They are hurting our country. They are hurting our country. THEY ARE HURTING OUR COUNTRY. I can't stress it enough. THEY ARE HURTING OUR COUNTRY!

Well, I think that this time it is time to see their actions for what they are. They think that we are stupid. They think that we will be deterred. Try again. Vote them out. That's the solution. Tell our Senators and Representatives that we will not tolerate their political ploys any longer. It's time to get down to business. We have a large number of really impacting issues facing our country. None of which might I add have anything to do with flag burning or same-sex marriage or anything else.
I just find it scary that within the period of two weeks, our Congress has brought up two separate measures to contradict our Constitution. That's what these bills do. Two acts of political propaganda. Two acts of discrimination and bigotry akin to Jim Crow laws of our forefathers. This should be a threat to everyone, can't you see? And it doesn't matter if you believe in same-sex marriage or flag burning or people's rights to either of them. What will stop our Congressmen in the future from trying, politically motivated, to strip you of your rights. What will you say then. The time to act is NOW before the damage is done. This November, vote to protect our rights. Vote to protect your freedoms.

But otherwise, I have an idea for a new proposed amendment. How about a no sex on Sundays amendment. I know that there are groups out there who find sex uncomfortable enough to pass the damn thing. You know, why not, the Church will sure get on the bandwagon. And who wants to defy the Church! Well I will. And I hope to see you there.

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I would like to add one more thing, not wholly unlike the above. Isn't it just great that just as the political season begins, John McCain begins to act Republican again. To get elected of course. Deception never ceases in Washington. If I were our first president, I'd petition to have my name removed from the city. The state is much more beautiful anyways.

Let's vote these two-faced sons of bitches out of office. For our rights. And for the greater good of America.