I bet that I am the last person to realize the format change for blogger. Well, as I mentioned years ago, all hail our google overlords. At any rate at least they haven't deleted my blog, to their credit. Although I suppose they never actually delete anyone's. Regardless and such and another forty dozen phrases people use to mean something they should just say or omit instead of saying unclearly.
Let's not beat a dead horse. I've been gone for quite a while. At least the good news is that I am more apt to be back than ever before. We'll see how well that goes, but here's hoping I suppose. As I was saying, or at least as I am intending on saying, I had tried too hard to tackle big issues or to wrap things up in neat little packages. I realized this evening that this isn't my style. It isn't what is effective for me. Writing is a tool that helps me relax and it should not be restrained by what others may think, by rules or structure, or anything else for that matter that will inhibit me from expressing myself in a satisfactory manner. In short, I cared too much for the trees and forgot about the forest. Without the rewards of the beautiful vistas that I was originally rewarded with, this place lost its meaning to me and became more of a chore than a hobby. Well, at least now I know the problem, or think I do. Of course, two weeks from now I could realize it's a completely different issues, but that's fine too. It's best not to get too worked up with the how and the why when things are starting to work out in the writing category.
Of course, writing has always been part of my life. I am very expressive in that way. It provides me with pleasure and relaxation. Of course I always look to grand and then dump the project when it gets to cumbersome. At this rate I might use Twitter or something... of course then I'd worry that my hundred odd characters aren't special enough and will logjam my mind with the same pressure to write and my actions with the inability to follow through with it. Let's hope that doesn't happen again.
So let's let this place be somewhere I can be the person I am. Not perfect by any means, but happy and content. Who knows where this might take us?
And, as always,